My biggest regret 2 Final part !



When she was done bathing I asked her why she had served my numbers with such names and all she said was it was bad manners to snoop in to other people's phones. She never apologized whatsoever and I ended up apologizing instead.
When I went back home I kept thinking it was best I pleaded with Miriam my ex-wife to take me back. The following day I went to church knowing I was going to meet her there and I did. We went to her place,she cooked and we ate just like old times. I even felt a sense of relief that she had forgiven me and would definitely take me back. I gathered some courage and told her I needed her back in my life and I regretted my acts. She responded with a smile and said the chapter 'our' chapter was history. She told me maybe it was because I didn't have a job and once I had,I would treat her like I did before. I tried pleading with her but she totally refused and that's how I left her place.
Monday evening I went to see Jane; I wanted to set records straight. I didn't want to be a fool, so I planned on proposing to her and see how she would react. Jane was happy to see me and later offered me a glass of wine. Then I interrupted by kneeling before her with a ring which she rejected by saying she was still at school and that marriage and school don't go hand in hand. I wasn't upset, coz I knew she would reject. Minutes later a handsome guy came and she introduced me as her cousin, to which I didn't object. I wanted to beat the hell out of her but again I knew it would be pointless and I only had myself to blame! I asked her jovially,''Hey cousin could I have the car keys ? I told her I didn't want mum to keep waiting at intercity as it was getting late hence it was time I left . She hesitated but had no choice and gave them to me, at least I was happy to get my car back....
Some days later,Jane called to tell me that she needed the car back as it had become hard for her to go for lectures using public transport .I could not believe the guts on this girl,how could she have the audacity to ask for the car back? So my answer was simple...I simply asked Jane ,in what capacity would I give her my car? Who was I to be handling out cars like that as an ''Ant stepper''?
''I would rather I put the car to good use and moreover her fine boyfriend could buy for her another one.After Jane and I were done talking,I blocked her number.I started using my car as a taxi and at least it started generating some money.
Jane is a kind of girl who never lets go of what she believes is hers.. a few days later she had the guts to come to my house to claim the car back! I told her I never wanted to set my eyes on her ever again. I thought she had stopped but to my surprise, she sent a message using another number reminding me about the rentals which were due in a few days’ time to which I didn't respond!. I felt relieved that I was free from her and I didn't have to pay for her rentals and up keep anymore.
Jane was evicted from the house and her so called boyfriend also dumped her. She tried by all means to contact me but I was done with her for good and I couldn't reciprocate .
My Ex-wife on the other hand,seemed happy with her life and seeing that made me sad. I started monitoring her movements so as to make sure she didn't engage herself in any relationship.Whenever I heard or found out Miriam was in a relationship,I made sure I subotaged it.This kind of action made her detest me even more! I was talked to by a lot of people to stop making Miriam's life a living hell, as I caused all this upon my self.
I let Miriam be and I dedicated my self to going to church like I did before.Luck was on my side once more,I met Alice a lovely girl and we started dating.We had a wonderful relationship for two good months until Jane, from no where started claiming we were in a relationship.She made Alice believe she was pregnant for me and that's how our relationship crumbled.I was lost for words and the trend kept repeating itself until I gave a break to relationships.
A year later while at church I met Prisca and we fell in Love.I prayed that nothing came between us.I even went and asked for forgiveness from Miriam one more time.She assured me she didn't hold any grugdes against me,I was really happy to hear that! Things slowly started falling back on track for me,I found a job and thought to myself that it was high time I let go of my past.Prisca and I met while I was a taxi driver and she stood by me through thick and thin,hence she was worth to be my wife. We got engaged but I ended up breaking the engagement because I was just not ready.I felt the new marriage was just not meant to be. I wanted her to be like Miriam in so many ways,I guess that led to the breakup .
I know what I did to Prisca was not good but it's better to break an engagement than a marriage!
It has been six years since Miriam and I divorced and I am still single. Its like I pressed the pause button in regards to relationships! What I am happy about is I have become a better person religiously!
Jane became a second wife to a certain married business man who later divorced her after she gave birth.
Alice and Prisca are both married with kids,they seem happy so far!
As for Miriam,sadly she now found another man who I suspect is treating her well or better than I did.She is engaged to be married next year in march (2017).And all I can say to her is good luck,her fiance is really a blessed man!
I shared my story because I don't want what happened to me to happen to other people.So please learn somethiing from my mistake.Sometimes we take good people we have in our lives for granted by thinking they will forgive our mistakes or they won't react.The truth of the matter is,we humanbeings are different and we react differently to situations.What I did to my wife is unthinkable and because of it my life is in ruins.I let go of a good woman who truly loved me for who I am for somebody who was just after material things.From the bottom of my heart,I regret for my failed marriage because it is something I could have controlled.It hurts real bad as my realization has come ''too too'' late .Thus ,it will forever be a black mark for the rest of my life because it can not be undone .
The grass is not always greener on the other side..
1st Peter 5:8 says''Keep your senses, be watchful,your adversary, the Devil, walks about like a roaring lion, seeking to devour someone''
Thank you for taking time to read my story..

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